Saturday, August 15, 2009
my heart
argh! what is with blogger now...its got this weird format...
anyways im not happy with my studying timetable...3/4 of it is sleep, eat and laze...
i fell asleep in a public area for an hour!!! and then this small boy asked his grandpa what i was doing and the grandpa told the boy i was sleeping. Just then i woke up and my face was all crumpled and the small boy got scared!! hahaha! omg....i so need WARHEADS!! hehehe...
hehehe all a sudden im miss emotional... little things are throwing me off course.
Today i got jealous twice...really jealous...i had to walk away before people could see it in my face. hahaha! and right now recalling this, i cant believe myself.
I was so angry with you!! So angry with myself for being angry with you!!!
hmmmm....i guess im really naive. I dont know what to do. Im really confused. I have no feelings for you...yet i feel new feelings, feelings i have never felt before. To me you are just a friend. Heck! You are not a friend you are just a school mate, i barely talk to you. Problem is after you confessed, my mind cant rest. I hate not having control of my mind. I hate thinking about you. I dont know what to say to you or how to react. I act normal but im afraid if you were telling the truth, you might get angry. If i show subtle hints and if it was all a joke, then i would be super embarrased. I DONT KNOW IF YOU ARE LYING TO ME!!! Why do you torment me so! I hate being a girl.
I need to gain control of my emotions!
...i hate being jealous. Makes me feel so depressed. People only get jealous because they dont have what someone else has. And i hate how im missing so much!
hahahahahaha!!! today was really an eye opener, hahahaha! oh wells life goes on!! I STILL HAVE TO STUDY.... :(
I Confess I Messed Up
9:27 PM
The wound begins to close in on itself, to protect what is hurting so much.
_This Is Me__
~Name: Sarah Jane Gianna Anthony
Dramamama no.4
~Horoscope: Cancer
~birthday: 12th July
~Age: 18
~School: nanana...
_My Life__
~Ice Cream
~Gilmore Girls, Gossip Girl, Big Bang Theory
_xBitchesx__
x Studying
x Certain peeps...*hint*
_+wishlist+__
Razia's Shadow a Musical album!!
Time!!